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HelLO!



.M.E.
21 years on earth
enjoys the sun,sand and the sea
loves food
.WhAt.Do I waNT
!Gibson Guitar!
!Apple Iphone!
!Go Redang Island!
!Msia!
!HK/TW!
!StandardChartered, AHM!

ChitChAt

FelLoWs
  • Choo(Ang) Wenting
  • Chan Jookee
  • Sooeng
  • Pohsiew
  • CaipinG
  • Jason
  • Wanwei
  • Wenqing
  • Qinglin
  • euniCE
  • Ade HO~
  • Kareen aka. SlimE!!!
  • Youwei
  • Kelvin Chu
  • Jerold Tan
  • JohN teO
  • AnNA ms XBD
  • FreddieChan
  • Ah Hao
  • YongShen
  • Christine
  • Zhengxiang
  • DennisOSP~
  • SebasChua

  • HiSTorical RecoRds
    June 2005
    July 2005
    August 2005
    September 2005
    October 2005
    November 2005
    December 2005
    January 2006
    February 2006
    March 2006
    April 2006
    June 2006
    July 2006
    August 2006
    September 2006
    October 2006
    November 2006
    December 2006
    January 2007
    February 2007
    April 2007
    February 2008
    March 2008
    April 2008

    .MedIaBOx.
    Wednesday, August 31, 2005
    To sooeng :
    "Oi ! 9 year pal liao, from pri sch till now we've always been same school. Time really flies. Happy birthday to joo, loving you always =) . You always have that blur toot in you, so sickeningly adorable. But please dun be so blur toot next time man, must be more alert. Yup, enjoyed the times we had, joking and laughing and caring for each other. I promise the 10th year of our fwenship will be nice and memorable! Remember? we set August as our commemorating month cause our birthdays both falls on it ! 1 at start and 1 at end somemore. Enjoy ya day girl, may all your dreams come true!" Once again, Happy Birthday!

    Concert 8am-9am, wat the hell...
    Gathered with my sec sch mates, went back JSS together.
    Caiping, Caiyan, Qinglin, Roxanne, Madeleine, Sooeng, Yeanchin, Xihui, Jonathan, Karen, Wenqing, Ruiqiang, Chechang, Gwendoline.
    Haha wat a crowd.

    Been long since i took the 240 route, the roads to school so familiar, really like the times then.
    Went to hall, see see look look, then saw Ms Tang. Yup, one of the pretty teachers around.

    Explore abit, saw Mrs TONG!!! My fav chem cher, fav cher.
    Nvr change, still as nice as ever.
    Guess wat, the Staffboard wrote : "Irene Tong - Larger HOD"Pro, ppl HOD only she LARGER somemore, and shes temp HOD of maths for now too..omgomg.

    Went to find Mrs Chia (form teacher, same surname somemore), still that gorgeous pro-looking teacher. Talked abit with us lar, really enjoying to chat with teachers at a different level. Heard from her alot of reshufflings in the staff side, teachers come and go, change positions and so.

    Saw Mr Woon (the army-style maths cher). Haha, same thing lar, tat joker...
    And Anna Koh, still remember the health quiz, haha. She cute sia, bag full of balloons sticking out, walking around, with her kid also.

    Ms Oh! Sec 1 cher, still remember our names sia, pro...chatted and laugh with her too.
    Mdm wong resigned, her colon cancer operation made her frail, hope she's well.
    Ms seeto still there, my choir cher. Nvr see Mrs heng around, but got Ms Heng ( the big size lady who teach CME).

    Students list now!

    Haha, not much ppl went back though, prelims and polys.
    Yea, ChoonYew came, so thin now man...nearly couldnt recognise him.
    Hoeren and his long hair arh.....flaky skin somemore.....
    Benji got rebonded hair, lol not bad, loooks shuai-er.
    Yongquan and kok, haha dun need mention lar, every week also see...
    Kianann and Jingwei, said hi.
    Gregory, whoa funky and fashioned sia.
    Meijun, Chiewlian still studying in JSS, haha.
    Eugene, handsome dude now sia, with longer hair. He used to cut short, NCC style.
    The rest, not familiar with names, haha. Got all kinds lar, pia kia looking though.
    And yea....Datou Cuimin gave me smack on tummy...And Muntou Sinmun gave me a fist in tummy too.....Marjorie and Huiling came back from SA too.


    Hope i never left out anyone!

    Wanwei fuming mad liao lar, she ask us we like all not intending to go, end up today a crowd went and she nvr come, lol.

    Took photos, then went eat lunch at the renovated market. I prefer the old stinky dirty one, more memories.
    And so we ate, crap, laugh.
    Really enjoy spending days with my sec sch mates again.
    The lime juice ah pek still there, Hainan chicken rice no open, Bak Chor mee auntie still there too. Eating together has never been so much fun. Told you 1 day 24 hours also not enough liao, who ask me so many fwens....
    I miss the old days =)
    The good memories...
    The fun we had....
    The time we spent together....
    My 2-4 buddies are always the best dudes around.

    Monday, August 29, 2005
    Stressed....

    As the weekend approaches, can feel stressed liao.
    This sunday TKD grading le, wanted to ask benchies go watch de, budden....
    prelims coming up, let them stay at home study bah
    later not nice show also, so might as well , haha~!
    Wed last training. =)

    Thanks arh dennis, i help you push sebas bag and you ally with him and drop my file....
    PY and me test each other bio, realised im not really gd at memory work! missed out all the details...badbadbad.

    Wed halfday, intend to be late to skip the morning exercise. Thurs hols i heard, gotta mug like nvr b4 for my prelims.


    Sunday, August 28, 2005
    Oh yea, i forgot

    Tat day packing my stuffs, then i found this 4 pieces of rough sketches. Its the nitewalk plan for choir camp, brought back so much memories, esp wanwei's cheeky face, haha.
    Kindda remembered those fresh pics in my mind,
    how we mug at koksiew's house,coming up with these evil plans
    how we laugh our hearts out and stomach upside down until we cry from our evilness
    how we successfully organise the camp, and all the fun we had

    man~ one day i must take pic of those sketch and mail to wanwei, caiping, and my pals. Ill bet theyll nvr forget those days.

    Happy Birthday Youtian

    You're so blessed to celebrate your birthday with me! So many ppl want but dun have sia.
    Be honoured.
    Pork rib at Cafe Cartel.
    Patsy looked gorgeous and cute, haha.
    Sent her home like usual, and walked meself home after that, reached at 1am.



    The hardest part with having a friend is having to say goodbye"

    Saturday, August 27, 2005

    THANKEW TIME

    Its 3.00am in the morning on Sat.

    Thinking much, i decided to write a Thankew Entry 1st and foremost to my Benchies with whom i spend almost 3/4 of my day with.

    1. Dennis OSP
    You're always the 1st image to come to my mind, i cant deny but definitely, you're one good buddy i ever have. Thanks for the happy times we had, playing piano in school, talking cock together, and minesweeping with me. For urahara-ing and getting all excited over bleach. Thanks for being there for me, thanks alot. Thanks for your sweet messages, and your "Take care take care" every so often. For all that, i really thankew.

    2. Sebastian
    Oh no no, dun get all cocky for this, but i just wanna say thanks for studying together. And all your "thanks arh thanks arh". Thanks for teaching me the ways of the stars and hearts with straws too, and then start pingping-ing,mintmint-ing, and tingting-ing after that arh... For trying to act cute, for crapping together, for dropping my hp (yes u freaking idiot) and for being so actively involved in stripping me. It was till recently that i discover another cool dude around. For coming into my life, i thankew.

    3. Weichong
    You toot, always studying. But youre still cool! But please la, dont miss out all the funs we have, this might be the last times we can enjoy together. Yea, knew you ever since i step in JJ, just want to say thankew for being straightforward and blunt at times, though not pleasant to the ear but you meant good. Thanks for speaking out truthfully all the time, for coming up with crazy plans, i really enjoyed it over at inghow's house tat time. Thankew for being there.

    4. Yuyin
    This one 2 thumbs up. Really thankew for being the happy soul in the gang. Thanks for spreading your laughter, and your contagious sneezing germs too O.O! Yup, alot happened but your smiles nvr wipes off. Thanks for cheering me up when i was sulking, for taking all the silly shots, for feifei-ing tingting-ing and pingping-ing me, for holding duo concerts with me, for dining together at Newton and watching fireworks, for showing me your laced erhmm 2 times...Haha there's just so many things but i kindda forgot...Ah yah, thanks for being there for me too.
    For everything we did together, i thankew.

    5. Youtian
    Thanks arh, for plucking out my white hairs, 3 a day and sometimes exceeds quota. Thanks for sleeping at the bench, and then suddenly wake up, funny. Thanks for feifei-ing and tiantian-ing with me, stealing SPC straws together, for eating icecreams together on our way back, for being thick-skinned, for crapping. Most importantly of all, your smile and laughter are definitely mesmerizing and somewhat attractive, so keep smiling! For all the happy times together, thankew dude!

    6. Aneesha
    Thanks for flirting with Sebas in front of me, exchanging sweet talks here and there arh. Thanks for being there with us, for enjoying fireworks together, for praising me SOMETIMES. And thankew for all your complex cold jokes, really takes me some time to realize. For ur mesmerizing language and smile, and the happy moments we have, thankew.

    7. Patsy
    Woot, Hao Jie Mei, thanks for being my hao jie mei, for studying together, for talking crap and trying to praise yourself (arh you nvr succeed). Thanks for letting me escort you home, for enjoying fireworks with us b4 that, for brightening the days up. For assigning me maths qns, and ignoring me when needed, Thankew arh.

    Have i left out anyone ? I hope not.

    Alrighty, 3.47am. Time to rest.


    I wish for 96 hours a day, so that i can devote my time to each of my friends.
    I wish for time to stay at eternity, so that wonderful memories stay stagnant.
    I wish for more of me, so that i can accompany more souls through the darkest hours.
    I wish for a encyclopedia of Meng's Fwens, so that i can know them more.
    I wish for a chamber in my heart, where i can lock up all my fwens in there.

    I will bear the misery, if happiness could be bestowed upon my fwens.
    I will bear the grudge, for all the forgiveness they can get.
    I will be evil, so that the angel in them can soar and spread their wings.

    Wat niceness in me, in the early wee hours of the morning.

    "Those who bring sunshine into the lives of others, cannot keep it from themselves."

    "Let us be grateful to people who make us happy; they are the charming gardeners who make our souls blossom."

    "Our sweetest songs are those that tell of saddest thought."

    "always remember the good times that you had.. for there will come a day where these fond memories becomes your strength and hope."

    Angels can fly because they take themselves lightly; devils fall because of their gravity"


    Friday, August 26, 2005
    {7.30am}
    I came out from home, just happened it rained heavily...have to bring umbrella...
    {7.40am}
    Reached school, abit cold and wet....
    {1.00pm}
    4 Canadian 241 pizza for Tiantian, Inghow and Yueru's birthday.
    {2.00pm}
    GP Paper 1 - Discuss the importance of religion in the society today.
    GP Paper 2 - Choices VS Destiny
    {6.00pm}
    Finished GP, discussed about tml's dinner date. Suggested JB, but too bad got alot of cannot cannots, so think its settled for local liao.
    {6.30pm}
    Joined Inghow, Knegtiong, Zicheng for basketball. Nope, no butterfingers today, haha. Good catches, but lousy throwing.
    {7.00pm}
    Hawaiian 241 pizza again, by RnD. Thankew arh, today had nothing but pizzas...Went off in 99 with Zicheng and Inghow.
    {8.00pm}
    Rushed down to TKD. Had some practice over jumping turning kicks.
    Coaching the colour belts, then sparring.
    Quek got me and YQ to demostrate a sparring session , say his class not up to standard, make me so shy....
    Yea, finished off at 10 with swollen leg, pain.
    {10.40pm}
    Busy day haven finished...came home and rush to burn MAR for YQ, tat bastard.
    {11.20pm}
    Finally get to shower after 1 long day...Wah song arh..
    {11.30pm}
    Shaman King Episode 64, last. Chatted with Sebas over tml, basket dennis, ps us tml for some....one else..
    {11.45pm}
    Arh thanks arh, caiping telling me how she tagged.....thankew for bringing me up on stage, collapsing me, and then banish me to hell...
    {12.00pm}
    Freak...finally im settled down............

    Inghow : Make good use of this weekend to study. Don't delay anymore. I want to see you getting a straight As for prelim. Promise!

    Ok tat was ...ehmm.....nice of him? He sent dennis too, wonder who else he send...Haha im gonna get back on track and chase him back. Im gonna promise myself, do well for prelims, get back my usual standards i have. Must not let them down.

    1 more thing.... damn im overbudget this month. Thanks to my NUH, my pet, all the august babies, class funds, all the small things and big things...
    Feel so guilty.......

    Thursday, August 25, 2005
    Occasional nose bleeding
    Fatigue
    Headache

    Haha, im going wild. The doctor says its normal, ill be fine by tomorrow =)

    ADDON!!!!!!
    Quote Sebas :

    [22.05 30.1.05]..miss u.. says:
    eh so how r u now?

    [22.05 30.1.05]..miss u.. says:
    how u feelin liaoz

    [22.05 30.1.05]..miss u.. says:
    u rest early too ar take care

    Arh tat bastard, so adorable.

    MY NOSE DROPPED!

    haha not funny!

    The Doc was a chiobu, attending to me, i feel blessed =)
    Got a nasalgynaescopy, something like that.
    Spayed something nasty into my nose, the taste stayed after 2 hours.
    Then poke a optic tube into my nose, i closed my eyes.
    Tears nearly came out when she poked some areas. My dad say roughly a 50cm of the tube was inside me......freaked me out.
    Yea, op, nose bleed, went home rest.

    Yea bought 3kg of hay, 1 packet pellets, and litters for Bunny....hes so fortunate while i go bankrupt.

    Couldnt rest though i got a bad migraine. SO......
    I packed my room, 1 whole day.
    Now im slacking in my CLEAN room.

    Found many good stuffs which brought back memories.
    1. 6 albums of Dragonball cards + stickers
    Still remember the days me and JianJun and JianFeng. Long time no see them le, since they went ns.
    2. A Winnie Pooh glass cup, Wenting gave me for Friendship Day last year. Thankew for being such a good dude!
    3. Tonnes of cards, pokemon, magic, dragonball.
    oO now i think its a waste of money....how come i nvr realise that last time?
    4. Crystals! CuSO4, NaNO3, KH2PO4, KCr..something something...
    The crystal growing room, the pole dances, the happy times with my inghow gang, and of course Mr Suren.

    I wonder whos the "he" Dennis was mentioning, curious me, haha!

    Tuesday, August 23, 2005

    一位夫人打電話給建築師,說每當火車經過時,她的睡床就會搖動。 “這簡直是無稽之談!”建築師回答說,“我來看看。” 建築師到達後,夫人建議他躺在床上,體會一下火車經過時的感覺。 建築師剛上床躺下,夫人的丈夫就回來了。他見此情形,便厲聲喝問:“你躺在我妻子 的床上幹什麼?” 建築師戰戰兢兢地回答:“我說是在等火車,你會相信嗎?”

    【頓悟】有些話是真的,卻聽上去很假;有些話是假的,卻令人無庸置疑。

    英國紳士與法國女人同乘一個包廂,女人想引誘這個英國人,她脫衣躺下後就抱怨身上 發冷。先生把自己的被子給了她,她還是不停地說冷。 “我還能怎麼幫助你呢?”先生沮喪地問道。 “我小時候媽媽總是用自己的身體給我取暖。” “小姐,這我就愛莫能助了。我總不能跳下火車去找你的媽媽吧?”

    【頓悟】善解風情的男人是好男人,不解風情的男人更是好男人。

    一個蘇格蘭人去倫敦,想順便探望一位老朋友,但卻忘了他的住址,於是給家父發了一 份電報:“您知道托馬的住址嗎?速告!” 當天,他就收到一份加急回電:“知道。”

    【頓悟】當我們終於找到最正確的答案時,卻發現它是最無用的。

    有三個人到紐約度假。他們在一座高層賓館的第45層訂了一個套房。 一天晚上,大樓電梯出現故障,服務員安排他們在大廳過夜。 他們商量後,決定徒步走回房間,並約定輪流說笑話、唱歌和講故事,以減輕登樓的勞累。 笑話講了,歌也唱了,好不容易爬到第34層,大家都感覺精疲力竭。 “好吧,彼德,你來講個幽默故事吧。” 彼德說:“故事不長,卻令人傷心至極:我把房間的鑰匙忘在大廳了。”

    【頓悟】我們痛苦,所以幽默;我們幽默,所以快樂。

    一個很有名的作家要來書店參觀。書店老闆受寵若驚,連忙把所有的書撤下,全部換上 作家的書。作家來到書店後,心裏非常高興,問道:“貴店只售本人的書嗎?” “當然不是。”書店老闆回答,“別的書銷路很好,都賣完了。”

    【頓悟】“拍馬屁”是個奇怪的詞:你像是在奉承他,又像是在侮辱他。


    Read this!

    "Two things are infinite: the universe and human stupidity; and I'm not sure about the universe."

    Think you got it? Read again and infer the last part.
    Haha quote Einstein, hes definitely some pro-er who can twist words.

    Quote Yuyin, " Wah mingfei your hand very fit leh"
    Lol...she must have saw those veins running thru, got abit of scare.
    Creeps, like she everytime also spying on me, dunno where,dunno when.

    Then she start mentioning about PW, how she used to tell me go train..lol.
    haHa PW was so fun, hiding in a corner of aneeesha's house napping, and they couldnt find me.


    Monday, August 22, 2005
    Exciting events up this week, monday maths mock ,tues bio option test, wed chem test and maths mock 2, friday GP mock 1 and 2

    Youtian made laughing stock today.
    GP Paper, something about biting the thing, and butt wat shit...
    Then talking about how sad can her life be, haha.

    Suren said thanks for the crystal thing we gave him.

    7pm ended maths. Did bad, do halfway then no mood to do liao.

    1 thing i must remember today :
    TAT FREAKING BASTARD SEBAS DROPPED MY HANDpHONE! kaoz...freaking idiot, nvr die b4. Come provoke me....

    Weichong have been spying on my blog....today keep asking me who is that girl..

    There was this shit in the boys toilet, so long,it floats, and the H2O around it turned brown, 1 long piece...grossed.

    Yea 200+ stars, another 1/2 and less to go.
    Yuyin : "How good would it be if you fold for me....."

    Sunday, August 21, 2005
    I hate rotting at hOME!

    Sat and Suns are always dreadful, rotting at home.
    Gave inghow a call, ask him some stuffs, haha everytime chat with him also so cheerful and crappy....
    Finished my chem revision package, then fold stars, notice my hands abit aching and cramping, pain...

    yup i enjoy playing minesweeper with hoeren, hes so gd and im so gd, we two always end up in a last flag battle.
    Shared songs with him, and he asked me whos tat chiobu who took a pic with a fat ugly duckling beside her ( my phto...) Haha ,then he showed me a chiobu pic, looks like some actor or sort....

    Try to pack my room abit, couldnt get maths revision started, slacked.

    Updated my blog, added bullets, borders, changed midi - Zhang Xin Zhe : Bie Pa Wo Shang Xin. And the little philosophy at the bottom right section. Set unicode UTF-8 to view it, if your com cannot see. Have Fun..

    Tmls sch.

    Friday, August 19, 2005
    JJ Open House.

    Helped out in Rocket booth of RnD, bo bian, miss Wun approached us.
    Inghow nvr come, PS me...say play bball,shoot rocket together de.

    Quite cockup, lost the nozzle so frantically go buy from outside. Of course,all ends well.
    And so, the Kengtiong me and ZC shoot rockets for the day.
    Wonderful, 2 wornout-looking rockets still can fly well. Amazed, feels gd with applause and cheers. And Ms Wun's happy face.
    Long time nvr work with Miss Wun liao, she's so best, feels no gap with her, can joke and talk crap.
    And so, we got wet, we played, and joked, and laughed, and fooled around.
    Food was everywhere, got buns, sweets, drinks.

    Yea, the day ended with 1 rocket up in class block, 1 splitted into 2. The 2 rockets tat did us proud have officially retire.
    Miss Wun (and the rest of the teachers) treated us to dinner (duckstick rice and Charsiew rice and Snapple drinks). Told you,shes such a nice teacher.

    Brought back memories of good old days.
    Inghow, me, Kengtiong,staying back in school till 10pm do rockets, talk craps, bottom up drinks, joke and fooled around.
    Crystal growing room, where we play games, broke appratus, create wonderful crystals, calling jianjie expert. Our crystals still in there.
    And Mr Suren's mini present. Finished it up by writing names, then me and zicheng dropped it into his pigeon hole.

    Dropped 4 coloured stars into Sooeng's pencil box, she said thanks for the surprise, lightened her day.

    And so i slacked whole day, while my benchies study the day away.
    Abit guilty, but no regrets. My mood lightens up abit, ive found back the company i belong to.
    Infected my high mood to benchies at 7pm, all dun feel like studying, thanks to me.
    Tml is sat, another weekend, time really fly....

    Thursday, August 18, 2005
    Went JP for Pizza hut lunch with benchies.
    Had those pizza set, many share together.
    Then play the dunno wat game, kana 1 time, eat tat vege.
    The horrigible taste persist, grossed...
    Got someone to eat the "endometrium+semen" mixture too, too much bio liao.
    Girls tried to play hide and seek in ToysRUs, i guess theyre stressed out, lol.

    "Friendship is like fine sands in the palms of your hands, it slips away unknowingly and quietly. And when you try to grab hold the 2nd time, it never feels the same again. "

    ""Don't walk behind me; I may not lead. Don't walk in front of me; I may not follow. Just walk beside me and be my friend."

    "Our faith and our friendships are not shattered by one big act, but by many small neglects."

    "He who has a thousand friendsHas not a friend to spare,While he who has one enemyShall meet him everywhere."

    "A friend is one who knows you and loves you just the same."

    "True friends stab you in the front."

    "True friendship is a plant of slow grow, and must undergo and withstand the shocks of adversity before it is entitled to the appellation."

    "The road to a friend's house is never long."

    "A friendship can weather most things and thrive in thin soil; but it needs a little mulch of letters and phone calls and small, silly presents every so often - just to save it from drying out completely.".

    Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born.

    Those truly linked don't need correspondence. When they meet again after many years apart, Their friendship is as true as ever.

    It's the friends you can call up at 4 a.m. that matter.

    It is easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend.

    Wednesday, August 17, 2005
    I must be mad today.
    From the start to the end of the day, i kept provoking york song.
    Whack him in his stomach, squeeze his hands, trip him, tap his shoulder every now and then...bla bla bla...haha.

    Long day, inghows birthday, no stripping but i bet tml...hes doom.
    Im not gonna interfere, he ismy ally.
    So fast 1 year plus, call it fate or wat. His name got my notice since 1st day, i tot it was a girl's name. Same OG, then after that same class, till now. glad we became the best pals, with zicheng,bernard,kianwee.

    Unusually quiet at bench, didnt talk for at least 2 hours except for answering questions. I tried my best to crap, but nothing came out from my mouth, Haha.....
    Was reading chem notes, then left home earlier for tkd.

    Tkd was fun, I blasted the hand mit from my fwen's hand up into the air , somewhat like 2.5 storeys. Everyone there tio stunned, then i also paiseh paiseh, then blame my fwen for not holding tight.
    Obviously the lie was seen thru by almost everyone.......

    Lastly.....
    To my benchies : im fine, dun bother bout me.

    Tuesday, August 16, 2005
    On the brighter side

    I beat dennis in minesweeping today, teaching him not to be proud just cause he won me yest while i chat with 5 girls and play with him. Of course, he said he put in his 100% effort into todays game, and obviously my 50% effort is more than enough =X (hes gonna hate this paragraph,and most imptly hate me)

    Sebastian, youve been spying on my blog, dun think i dunno. I read the stars and foresee everything, and of course Holy One must advance with technology, so i manipulate the powers of softwares too. Nothing can escape from my holy brain.

    Little productivity for 2 days, less than 20 stars, still got 200+ more to go, lucky got time. I told BROTHER yin who the stars are for!!! Haha, not fun liao ,shouldve keep the suspense, let me benchies think wai wai.

    Little days to prelims, shall plan. Quote Sec sch head, Principal Toh " Failure to plan, (pause long long)..... is planning to fail." Haha....Holy one needs rest,and a peace of quietness tonite. Depart i shall....

    PS: No worries man, ill be alrighty next day!. Adios.

    Whats becoming of me.....
    im just not my usual self recently, im unusually quiet at studying today, just dun feel like talking.

    I tried to joke, i tried to smile, at least i tried. No one shall feel sad along with me, i only bring happiness to others and not otherwise. I hope my sadness dint taint them.

    Tml is wednesday, the punching bag will be there for me, just when i need it.

    TO WENTING : I know life is hard for you, i know time and time again those marks have let you down. And i know how sucky it gets under stress, and as the exams draw near. But no one have given up on you, not me, not your fwens around you too. Perservere on ok? Ill be there for you when you need me, promise. And take care.

    Am I Falling for u???

    I can no longer understand myself anymore....
    I dunno, im trying to tell myself not to think too much
    yet what is shown b4 me is just wat i dun wish to see....
    Its heart-wrenching to see what i saw with my eyes
    I hate to deny........yet there's no chance for me to vie....

    worthless, useless
    weakling.
    Sadded.

    Monday, August 15, 2005
    You may not know, but you have made it to a important place in my heart, youve become a piece of my life, but why i haven manage to step onto the stage of yours???

    What happened to the best times we shared?
    Have you forgotten? or rather those happy times means so normal to you?
    New one comes, old one must go?
    I put you high up, you put me down below, why have i failed to leave a mark in you?

    Sadded

    Sunday, August 14, 2005
    Stars and more staRS....

    WEichong say thankew to me for being his walking stick on friday. Yesh, feels gr8 helped him to the chinese physician there , must be the happy hormone raging.

    Made 126 stars over the past 3 days? Madness.

    Yea, today is boring, studying bio and slacking, nothing much. And i just realise Dennis => Sinned in reverse mode. Wahaha, the Holy One (me) shall forgive him anyway~im angel from heaven, remember?

    Tml's sch.

    Saturday, August 13, 2005
    Sorry DenniS!

    To Dennis : So sorry i broke my promise, so sorry for the false hope,for letting you down. so sorry dude. And sorry to Sebas and yuyin too.

    Well you see, i gave him my word ill go his church concert but just that dun feel quite good today, so nvr go, and i dun feel any better even after that. Remorseful is all i get, and weather was good today you see, so utterly wrong making the choice to stay at home.

    My fingers sore, just 2 days of folding stars. 7 times more the amount to go. For her, it will be worth the pain.

    Minesweeping has been fun these few days. Opponents with Dennis, Hoeren, Sinmun. Hoeren worthy one, our games give both of us alot of kicks, i must say hes as fast as me (90sec expert mode =P) Im hooked.

    Wierd feelings...jealous of he and she? Am i having good feelings for heR? i dunno....LOST......

    Thursday, August 11, 2005
    From YuyiN's Post
    Meng: Thank you for always being so irritatingly sweet. So discretely protective. So helpful all the time. Thanks for waking me up early in the morning on weekends. You have such adorable dimples i really wanna dig them out. Haha.. =)

    These people are the truest of the truest beings. The bestest and greatest of company. They don't judge, they don't criticise. They don't stab you in the back, they don't turn green when you succeed. Instead,they just stand by you.. they clap when you're up there and pull u onto your feet when you're down.You may never notice their presence when you're down.. but they're always there. We came from all walks of life and are totally different. Yep.. we've all very average people. Neither hunks nor babes. Neither geniuses nor retards. We're just a bunch of peeps taking the A levels this year. Yet, this lil intersection in our lives definitely left an unerasable memory that we'll take with us. Outsiders will never know the invisible strength we have.. The unbreakable bond that had formed during the long hours of benching.

    Stars and Hearts

    Its a marvelous friday, started off bad. As i leaving house, accidentally spill H2O onto my pants, and it was like gonna be late for sch! Quickly grab hairdryer and blow dry abit, then hurry off to sch.
    Ended school and took class photos, nice shots taken. Still got some with warren,he refuse to upload, lazy bum...
    Study Till nite, got Sebas to teach me how to fold stars and hearts. Lets hope i can make it in time for her. Ate KFC for lunch, took straws...pass by SPC, took straws again, evening buy things,took 132 straws from SPC again...
    Lets pray hard me and tiantian's face dun appear in newspaper tml.

    Wednesday, August 10, 2005
    National Day Chillout!

    Haha, dinch join them for Charlie and Chocolate Factory, no interest at all.
    Kindda lazy to go down to Durian there again, but boredom defeated me.
    Met up with weichong and tiantian at 4+, was earliest cause i asked dad to fetch me there.
    Took 700 to Esplanade, but got road block so have to walk there. Squeeze thru the crowds,so damn lots....took us long enough to get there, and was hot cause i wore black!!!

    And so...met up with Sebas, Yuyin,Patsy, Aneeeeeeesha.
    7 of us took some shots. Had a nice shot with aneeeesha! my cheeks got meaty,dunno why,and looks abit chao ah beng, lol.
    Saw Cannon blastings, Chinooks, Fighter plane, and the plasma tail of Mach planes, so cool.

    Getting bored with waiting, played the guess no. game. Forfeit was cool,wahaha!
    Finally fireworks, 3 spots, and totally awesome. And so we squeezed with crowd trying to get out...took us long enough.
    Busy protecting the girls from Bangladeshs...keep intercepting them from the girls,haha.
    Dabao LJS, went riverside makan and crap out the nite.

    Finally, 3 pairs of us went home. Took MRT with my hao jie mei patsy, and escort her home. Then miss the last bus, walked home from 1230 to 1am. Not bad to go for nitewalks, haha.
    Nice to chill out with my s3 dudes, lets wish for more to come.

    "When friendship is forged, even time will not deny."

    Tuesday, August 09, 2005
    Pre-National Day!

    Woke at 8am, late for sch, lol
    go sch celebrate, series of telematches, took part in the relay run with 5kg medicine ball
    had splashing gr8 time with dennis,sebas,weichong,and of course yuyin who allied with sebas...
    Went out to eat lunch with patsy and py in addition to those ppl.
    Study abit, till 6pm, then went home and prepare for nitecelebration~

    Met with Sebas,dennis and yuyin at clementi ctrl stn. Strangely, we all wore white teeshirt.
    What a coincidence....representative of the 3 holy ones, muahaha!
    Dinner at Newton, sumptuous enough.
    Set off to Esplanade, sat there till 12am then see fireworks. Nice display, and lousy photographer dennis dinch even take a video or any pics of it! bleh~!
    So we went home on NR05, saw kaicheng too. Fun day, and of course not forgetting,we were crapping all the way. Ahaha.

    A day worth remembering, a day of fun.

    Saturday, August 06, 2005
    Woot, YQ demanded my company yest nite. Haha , went downstairs my house to see him at 10+pm. Sat there and there we go, guy-to-guy talk. Told me about his stuffs lar, then i also dunno how to help him, just be a listening ear. He already on verge of breakdown after tat liao.
    And so......our talk ended at past midnite.

    Thruout the nite, took only naps in intervals, so nvr really slept. Help him transfer animes to his laptop, then sooner than i imagine its 0530 liao. Haha, going biking at 6am, but bike with YQ, yest talk too long till no bus home so lend him bike ride home. But end up postpone to 6.30am

    So went cycling with Haosheng and KaiwEI~ X the jurong industrial areas and finally reach birdpark. Went uphill see sunrise, too bad already up liao. And the air was smokey, due to yest's ghost gate open thingy and ppl burning those stuffs. Crap all the way there and home, haha, reached home at 8am.

    Then feel bored, start disturbing Sebas and Yuyin by msging them. Bleh~ Today is Saturday!!! though im tired now, but i wun sleep till tonite! WAahaHAhA~

    Friday, August 05, 2005
    Its a bad rotten day today.
    Woke up later than usual, dunno why so tired...reach sch stomacheache, go toilet poo poo.
    Blood donation today, unusually low systolic/diastolic pressures, must be nvr had breakfast. So kiasu me drank 2 packs of milo after that.
    GP debate totally sucks, no way given out language we can outwit the other team, even our thinking is on their side, but great help from Vicky and Akram for rebuttals. Im just bad at expressing my brilliant ideas in my minds for all these years i could ever remember. Could tell yuyin exactly wat i wanna say but tell me raise POI i screw it up.
    Bad day dosen ends, Yuyin told me Sebas got screwed this morning, no wonder hes not himself today.....
    Then worser things happen......
    End the day with 3 rotten souls in school, 1 somewhere else. Couldnt decide to go sentosa cool heads down or not...but in the end we nvr make it there.
    Dunno wat to say to sebas also, guy-guy also dunno wat to talk...so just left him be.
    Departed from sch with them, just hope they feel alright
    And 1 more soul, need my company but theres only 1 me and 3 to attend to..wat to do.
    And upon that, u think im so carefree and problemless? Lifes such a struggle.

    Hai.....today is just downright rotten and foul.....

    "Till the end of time, till the last clock chymes, ill be there for you till then" Just to let my fwens know.

    Wednesday, August 03, 2005
    studied until bored liao, so played some games at the bench.
    Rule = not allow to speak You, Me, and I
    Quite fun to scribble on each others hands for punishments.
    Tiantian, patsy, me, yuyin, sebas. Its so cool to play.

    Went home, went tkd after that, today tat wooncheehun came, long time no see him, haha, still his usual pai kia style.
    Told me kana whacked by ppl recently...
    Self defence training keep calling for master to demo on me some self defence...
    Sabo me...my master ruthless, lucky he knows how to control...
    all his SD is about hitting my kuku one....lucky sia, but feel so molested after the training..
    tmd wch...u watch out for saboing me.

    Tuesday, August 02, 2005

    Happy 18th Birthday to MEnGFeI!!!!!!!!!

    This is for you ;)

    First and foremost, feifei was my beloved pw group leader. Then he became my beloved friend. Always the mr. nice... Never loses his temper, never raises his voice.. sweet guy. Whenever i ask him for help, his first answer will be a straight NO to my nose. But well, i got used to it. Cos i know 5 secs later he'll turn back to me and give me all the help i need. In fact, he sometimes remind me of how prawitpong used to help me in maths. Haa~ Always tease him with the special 3 girls.. pingping, tingting and "mengfeeeeeei~~~" HAHA! Let's just say i have no idea which one is he seriously interested in lah. He never gets angry so i just continue yakking loh. =D Anyway, he can be the ultimate slacker, yet ultimate worker. Extremely dilligent, not to mention smart. Hiak.. life is never fair. I'm stupid you see. Dont think he's a pushover k... feifei's a pro in taekwondo.. he'll kick your ass anytime ;) heyhey... thanks for being such a nice friend.. 18 le, please start behaving that age k. hehe.. May all your dreams come truuuuuuuue.. good luck for the As;)

    Love, Yuyin aka Ma Xiao Ling

    Eh Eh~ yinyin so sweeT! Haha....thanks alot! know wat? since dunno when, i got this gut feeling, tat 10 years down the road, we will still kindda remain gd fwens, nice eh? wahahA!

    ARh,today stay back in sch till 9+ to study, saw mdm sim and did some bootlicking, say doing bio...haha! climbed the rooftop, but nvr go 4th floor...crap the nite away at bench, talk nonsense and do nonsensical stuffs.....like mispronouncing tonghua song with sebastard together, irritating patsy together. Wahah, and youtian's "wo yao ni arh!", when she actually step her foot to demostrate her "biting..." Its GP time, whoohoO~





    thankew kareenlee aka slimey,
    for scaling to be the 1st wisher of year 2005
    thankew many others,
    who bothered to rmb my bdae and wish me
    thankew s3,
    for getting me a chocolate cake for my birthday
    thankew yorksong,
    for giving me the cunning smile first thing in the morning
    thankew guys...and girls of s3.....
    for making me run away to escape from your evil clutches
    thankew inghow,
    for siding with me,and exploring the hall with me
    thankew s3 guys ....
    for dragging me into the boys toilet and stripping me. (hmm.and i suppose to thank..). and just to let you all know. if i use 100% struggle, you all cant even touch my buttons man, i give in only, satisfy your sexual urges.
    thankew inghow,
    for getting stripped on the same day with me. be honoured,lol.
    thankew sooeng,
    for your cake, for your birthday song, really touching for you to sing song for me ALONE...thankew so much. and of course,thankew for your fork.

    so thankew thankew thankew!

    Monday, August 01, 2005
    Its My BIrthDay!

    18 yEars ago, a legend was born! Not from Chemical X, not from everything nice, nor sugar and spice, but hes just great. and hes none other than...mE! (waha bhb. -.-!!!) Thanks guys who remembered its my birthday. I admit i always dun remember ppl's birthday, only a few special ones, cause u matter more to me than the date you were born. Owells, Im glad to have recieve so many birthday wishes from gr8 peeps out there! thanks alot!

    Birthday Wishes

    KareenLee aka slimey [10.23pm]
    Hey you. I buay tahan. Must sleep le. So..Read this when the clock strikes 12 - Happy blessed birthday! =)

    Feifeng [11.58pm]
    Anyone there? Oh good, i have a delivery for you...
    ()'''''''()
    ( 'o' )
    (,,)-(''')
    ('''),,,(''') Happy birthday! Take care =D

    Kaiwei [12.01am]
    Happy birthday lo.....

    Zicheng [12.08am]
    HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY AHMENG!!!

    AdelineTan [12.08am]
    haha.. happy birthday! hehe.. wish u happy always n good luck for ya A's =)

    Youtian [12.09am]
    Yoz! Fei fei! Happy birthday! May all ur wishes come true n do well for e big As! Dun miss me! Good night! =)

    Guojin [12.09am]
    Oei..happy birthday, loL.

    Edison [1.24am]
    Each birthday is another chance to pause and start out new, to add more meaning to our lives n to make our dreams come true.
    "HAPPY B'DAE"!
    All e bez 4 yr As!

    Caiping [7.22am]
    Yipee ai ai yipee ai...
    Happy birthday meng!
    Unable to sing you song w my beautiful voice but hope ya stay kawaii, tats your personal style (watch too much superstar le) wa im late to sch le, most imptly, stay happy =) hoho..

    Sooeng [7.32am]
    Happy 18th bday my 9 yr fwen. May ya haf a smooth sailing yr ahd n haf a memorable bday! Njoy ya special day and stay cheerful!

    Afiati [7.57am]
    Happy bday 2 u.. happy bday 2 u.. happy bday 2 mengfei.. happy bday 2 u..!
    BeSt WisHe$! maY u hav a Wond3Rful yeaR aHeAd wif LoTza wonDerFuL fRenS liKe me..!

    Caiyan [9.12am]
    Hey meng!...haPpY BirtHdaY!.. may ur wishes come true!

    Wenjie [9.29am]
    Meng! Happy birthday! Geez! May there be many chiobus celebrating ur day w you! Sorry, i cant celebrate w you. Waha!
    Happy bdae! All the best for alevels! =D

    Roxanne [9.55am]
    HaPpI BiRtHdAe!! MaY AlL uR WiShEs CoMe True... FrenZ 4Eva.

    Madeleine aka MadMad [9.58am]
    HappY BirthdAy!!! aLL e best in ur future endeavours! let's all jiayou for a levels! =D Enjoy your day!

    Qinglin [11.59am]
    Happy birthday! Can watch m18,buy beer,and buy toto le!
    Wahaha......

    Peppermint [12.11pm]
    Hey...birthdae boy. 10 oredi liao....Meow..

    Soh Huifang [2.09pm]
    Hi....
    Happy birthday.... :-)

    Yanqin [6pm]
    *shake hands* Happy birthday meng fei fei fei fei fei fei~

    Yongquan [6.47pm]
    Hey meng... happy birthday my man... wish u all wishes come true on tis special day..

    Patsy Chia aka Haojiemei [7.17pm]
    Hey jie mei! Haha..happy birthday wor! 18 already..must mature! Haha..hope u enjoy the rest of ur birthday happily with ya family!

    Pohsiew [8.01pm]
    Hahax! Meng meng! U v slow leh,2dae den turn 18.. Hahax..Finally hor, got tt 'more man' de feeling mah? =P
    heex, happy 18th bdae mengy! Gotta njoy orh! =D

    Eunice [8.38pm]
    mengfei!!! HAPPIE 18TH BURFDAE!!! may all ur wishes cum true n score well in ur A levels dis yr okies!!! take care yea n hope to meet up with ya n lemon soon!!!! :D lastly, HAPPIE BURFDAE!!!
    And...being 18 doesnt give you permission to have sex okies...haha

    Wenting [8.40pm]
    Happy Birthday!

    Wanlu, Siti Radiah
    HaPpY BuRdAeHope you had an enjoyable day!! Hope that u will pass ur A level with flying colours!! jia you, i noe u can do it wan. I will always remember 04S8 and thanks for all the fun.take care and love ya always (cai guai!) :p !!!!!!!From wanlu and radiah!!!


    Karen
    *shake hands Happy belated birthday mengfei! sorry i forgot to wish you yesterday!

    Siying meimei
    Kor! wish you belated birthday, was sick and only woke up today. Anyway wish your dreams come true,and Happy Birthday!